Wednesday, July 12, 2017

On 30



Hello there, 30.

You kinda snuck up on me, didn't you?

That's okay. I've been waiting for you for a long time.

Oddly, I've had mixed feelings of eagerness and anticipation to turn 30 years old. It's been a while since I've had a milestone birthday, but here we are. So let's read a short story, shall we?

Once upon a time, 16 year old me was introduced to the oh-so-sexy Mark Ruffalo in a movie called "13 Going on 30."  From this Rom-Com classic, I learned that 30 isn't so bad! You can totally be thirty, flirty and thriving and really have all your shit together, even if it doesn't always feel like it.

And you know what?

I am 30 (today) and flirty (to mah hubs anyway) and thriving. I most certainly am thriving.

I was just telling Daniel the other day how life has been really good to me. Ask me on a bad mental health day and I will swear up and down I never said that. But it has been. I'm healthy. I've got all my needs met, most of my wants. I have the two best kiddos ever. I'm married to the coolest best friend a girl could ask for and I have a lot of people in my life who love and support me.

I've lost a lot of friends over the years. You know, as life takes you apart from those you once loved and cared about and shared so many interests, fun times and inside jokes. It's wild to think back to when turning 30 seemed so far away in the general scope of my life, how much has changed since then. So many different people are in that close space I reserve for those who mean the most to me. But so many are the same. My mom. (Thanks for giving me life, ma!) My dad. (Thanks to you too, dad. Guess you helped a little with the life thing.) and my siblings. But now I am so lucky to include their significant others and offspring (some with fur, some not) into that close space now too.

I've cut a lot of people out of that space over the years. And some have cut me out of theirs.

The best and absolutely most significant part about turning 30 years old is that I can say with 100 percent honesty is that I've never felt so confident and sure of myself in my entire life. My teen years were rough, ya'll. I'm sure some of you can relate. I was awkward and chubby and bullied and had terrible self-esteem. I worked too hard and didn't enjoy life enough. I was too hard on myself, too mean. My heart breaks a little bit for that girl I used to be.

And then I got into my 20s. The early part of that decade was awful. So freaking terribly awful. But then it started to get better and better, and then a little worse, but even better yet again after that. Life is a roller coaster and that is a cliche phrase for a reason.

29, you were one of the harder ones I've had yet. Not bad. Not terrible. Just hard. Lots of growth happened this year. I learned so much about myself, my life and what I hope for myself going forward.

I'm grateful for all of the experiences I've had. Even the wretched, horrible, nightmare ones. Because without them, I wouldn't be me. And I really like me, 30 years old, a few more fine lines, wrinkles, gray hairs...but I feel more beautiful in my own skin than I ever have. It took me 30 years to really, truly love myself. Flaws and all. Inside and outside. But here were are.

So let's wrap these ramblings of a blog post with a little gratitude. Thanks so much for all the birthday wishes. Thanks to all of you who have always been there for me, supported me, made an effort to be in my life and my kids' lives. Thank you to everyone who puts up with my overshares, selfies and too-many political posts on social media.

But most of all, thank you to those who love me. And work hard to make sure I know you love me. Those acts do not go unnoticed even if I sometimes take them for granted. I am incredibly lucky to have you all in my life.

Thank you.

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

That Dog Mom Life

If you've been a regular reader here for a while, it's likely you already know I have two of the cutest puppies in all the land.

Well, one is a full grown dog, but she's like 4 pounds so I'm pretty sure I can still call her a puppy.

And the other one is a puppy. An almost full-grown 6 month old puppy, but still.

Being a dog mom is almost as great as being a mom to humans. Sometimes better. Sometimes worse. Haha. In fact, Thor (dog) and Luna (baby) have very similar behaviors.

  • Both like to be loud
  • Both eat any scrap of trash they find on the floor
  • Both bite sometimes and look bizarrely cute when they do it
  • Both enjoy hanging out in crates
  • Both like to dig in the dirt

So since I was a dog mom before I was a regular mom, I felt like I'd had a little prior experience. :P 

Also as some of you know, I struggle with mental health issues like anxiety and depression from time to time. Hands down, my dogs are the best medicine for getting me through those rough days. Even if sometimes *cough* THOR IM LOOKING AT YOU *cough* they cause a little bit of that stress and anxiety. 

Many of you also know that I purchased both of my dogs. With Freyja, she's a pomeranian/shih tzu mix. I call her a pomshih (because I'm pretty sure it's not an actual recognized designer breed yet) and some of my friends like to call her a shit pom. lol. Either way, when I found a breeder selling her, we weren't even in the market for a second dog. We had a check list of all the things we wanted in a pup and she fit the bill on all of them. She's currently 2.5 years old and seriously the best dog. She's amazingly tolerant with the kids and Jack loves helping me take care of her. He calls her his "responsibility." lol. 

And Thor...

Oh boy. This dog. He's keeping me on my toes for sure! He's a mini American Eskimo pup that I got from another breeder. He's seriously a beautiful dog. I get stopped regularly. He's as smart as he is an oaf and I love his ridiculously silly personality. He's very much still a puppy and is very playful with Jack, but surprisingly sweet with Luna. Thor is a lot of work, but we're having fun working on training him and teaching him new tricks. He's a master of sit, come, (still working on, up, down, out, off and lay down and roll over. 

I am a huge advocate for animal adoption. I've worked with several animal shelters and have owned rescue animals myself. (RIP Newton). BUT it is possible to find reputable breeders that help you find the dog that is right for your family. I might get some backlash on this post, and I hope I don't. But I want people to realize that there are ways to get a dog from a breeder that is totally ethical. In fact, PuppySpot is a great resource. This service helps responsible breeders find loving homes and placement for their pups. Check out the website. They offer a great deal of info on dog breeds, breeder info and more. They even offer a no-puppy mill promise, which is really reassuring as they are difficult to weed out sometimes. 

I know I cannot picture my life without a dog in it. I've had dogs my entire life and it's been so much better for it. While dogs are a huge responsibility and require a lot of time, money and energy, they are worth it if you have the ability to get one and properly care for it. Being a dog mom is the best. <3 

Sunday, July 2, 2017

Fitness update!

Hey readers!

I've been meaning to do an update on how my fitness stuff is all going. For those of you who are interested in what I've been up to to shed some weight, this is basically the gist of it:

  • Low-carb diet 
  • Chasing around burgeoning toddler and four year old. 

The other thing I've been trying as of late is a new app I found out about through my blog. It's called Aaptiv and is an app that works to combine fitness trainer guidance with a kick-ass play list. The app and especially its new workouts are specifically geared toward moms and those looking for great maternity-style workouts. I've been taking mine on walks with me. So much fun and a great way to get the kids out of the house while I also get to get fitness guidance and tips from some of the best in the industry like Kira Kohrherr of FitBump as well as yoga instructor Kristen McGee. These trainers are trained in both pre and postnatal exercise.

So if you're looking for a work out method to go along with your busy mom sched, I highly recommend Aaptiv. This fitness app offers short, quick workouts if you're like me and don't have a schedule that allows you to dedicate so much time to work out. From stretching exercises to yoga, walking, meditation, 5K training and more, Aaptiv offers a seriously good work out. The best thing about having a fitness app like this on your phone is that you can do it anywhere. At home,outside, at work, even at the gym (without the high price of an actual trainer!)

I did get to try the app for free, but so can you! *they are offering free for 7 days!* It's only $9.99 a month after that and you can cancel anytime.  Check Aaptiv out today. Seriously. I don't recommend products I don't absolutely love and believe in.

My favorite part about this fitness app is that you can filter work outs by intensity and you can also set reminders and alerts so you remember when you need to work out. As someone who really struggles to stay motivated to working out, this has been super helpful!

I typically set up a stroller workout for the morning, an afternoon meditation session and yoga in the evening after I get Luna to bed. (but before Jack hits the pillow because we all know he's a little night owl) plus he likes to do Yoga with me sometimes. lol.

I'm only 5 lbs from my goal weight and I've been slacking on the low-carb diet a little bit lately, so I really need to get back into that. As someone with PCOS, carbs are my ultimate enemy. Fortunately Daniel doing the Ketosis diet has been helping me stay on track with mine. Keto is a little too hard core for me especially since it encourages you to rely a lot on high-fat foods and fiber. Since I no longer have a gallbladder a lot of extra fat and fiber makes me really sick, so I have found a way to balance low-carb with foods I can eat easily. I just don't go quite as low carb as Daniel. I try to stick to under 75 carbs a day and it's been a lot easier than I expected. I feel healthier and more in shape than I have in a long time.

I'm wearing shorts this summer, you guys. SHORTS. IDGAF if my white legs are blinding. I'm able to wear shorts. WOOOOT.

Anyway, I'd love to hear any feedback if any of you end up trying Aaptiv too. Keep me posted! It's really fun.

Monday, June 19, 2017


Considering my hardcore slacking on the blog here lately, I figure I owe a post dedicated to what we've been up to lately.

I forget how busy summers tend to get for us, which is surprising, but is what it is. We had my big brother Rusty staying with us for a couple weeks and had all kinds of fun.

We also had some sad news: Dan's Grandma Whitney died last week. She was such a special lady and was so welcoming of me into her family. She looooved her great grand babies. We loved being able to go visit our SoUt stomping grounds for a few days and honor her life.

The great grandbabies. <3

We also just had the big Sadlier Family Reunion, which was so fun. The Sadlier clan are seriously some of the nicest people you'll ever meet. I married into quite an awesome family and extended family. The kids loved getting to see their cousins and we enjoyed the beauty of Kamas, Utah.

Also Jack just wrapped up playing t-ball for the season. It was a really fun experience for him to get to know some new kids, play outside (which he looooves) and learn a new skill. I'm not sure baseball is really his thing, but time will tell! I think he was pretty grateful just to have a new experience and I am grateful he was able to learn more independence, which I think will really help him as he gets ready for Pre-K this fall.

We have some more adventures already planned for the summer, including (hopefully!) buying a new house! Cross your fingers something great comes our way.

Hope everyone else is enjoying these days of fun and are staying as cool as possible. :p

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Luna, you are my I Love You

Having a one year old at home right now is so much fun. I gotta say. Luna is such a hoot. I've said it before, the age between about 12-22 months is probably my most favorite of the "baby phase." It's not that I don't like the squishy, tiny newborn phase. BUT with my kids...I've been so sleep deprived and so stressed with feeding struggles that I don't feel like I've gotten to full appreciate it. By the time they turn a year old, they're heading toward more independence, but are still in that "baby" stage, BUT they also eat some solid foods and don't need to nap all day, and are starting to talk and really show of their little personalities.

I tell people Luna is like a sour patch kid. HA. First she bites me (sour) but then she gives me lots of cuddles and kisses to make up for it. (sweet) LOL.

I was lucky enough to get some amazing pictures of her and I taken in a mommy/daughter photo shoot done by the talented Savvy Photography recently and wanted to share them here on my blog. Here are a few of my favorites! Enjoy!

A big, big thank you to my good friend for taking these incredible pictures I will always treasure of my sweet baby when she was only this small for such a short amount of our time together.

Tuesday, May 30, 2017

Luna Marina: Month 12

*sobs* so many *sobs*

My baby, you guys. My BABY IS A YEAR OLD. *cry cry cry*

*tries to pull self together. Cries a little more*


I can't. I can't even.


She's one, ya'll. It happened. The birthday came and went. We had her party. We celebrated. So many people who love and adore our little lady came to celebrate with us. We are so lucky to have such incredible family members and friends. Thank you all. From the bottom of my heart. Seriously. It meant the world to have you come celebrate as well as to see so many happy birthday wishes for my baby girl online. I thank you all. Check out the recap post on our big celebration here.

Miss Luna.

She's the best baby girl. Wow are we some fortunate people to have the perfect completion to our little family. She's funny and sweet and smart and so freaking cute I cannot even handle it.

Her stats:

Weight: 23 lbs of pure baby chunk and muscle
Length: 30 inches (approx)
Clothing:  Mostly 12-18 months and She's in size 4 diapers. 
Teething: 8, four on bottom, four on top and she's currently cutting a couple molars and her canines.
Nicknames: Luna Bug, Buggie, Bunny, Lu-Lu, Little Princess.

After Jack, I thought I would never sleep again. But Luna is pretty great. She only wakes maybe once or twice a night to nurse. We still co-sleep so I honestly barely even remember. She is down to about one nap a day. Occasionally two. Just depends. But she usually sleeps from about 8-8. 

She still nurses and I don't see us ending that anytime soon, BUT she does love to eat her favorite big-people foods too. Current faves are cheerios, grapes, cheese, yogurt, chicken and granola. Like her mama, she's not crazy about sweets. In fact, she had a sincere dislike of her bday cake and refused to ever eat any. Baha! 

Big girl loves to drink water out of a sippy cup though. 

Her other favorites include:

Her mommy, daddy and brother. 
Her puppies. 
Playing outside. 
Going for walks. 
Bath time. 
All of her family members. 
Toys that play music. 
Her blocks. 

She's currently...
Pulling herself up on everything. 
Cruising furniture. 
Completely over her pacifier *yay*
Stands unassisted for short periods of time. 

She's finally showing an interest in walking, but honestly I'm not crazy pushing walking. I'd rather she stay my baby just a little bit longer. 

Luna says...

Mama, dadda, bubba (brother), Jack, ball, baby, pup pup, duckie, bye-bye, hi, hey, surprise (like aprise!) and she's also really big on animal sounds like quack-quack, arf, meow and moo. 

haha. It's sooo cute! We love to read together and play outside. She's really drawn to animals of all kinds it seems too. 

She's really the best little buddy. She adores her daddy and her brother and we love watching her learn and grow. It's so bittersweet watching her turn from baby into little girl. I never thought it was possible to love so much until Jack and Luna came into my life, but these two and their amazing daddy are the best parts of my life. I am so lucky to be such big parts of their lives. 

We love you so much, Miss Luna Marina Dawn. You are the best little lady. We can't imagine life without you. 

Friday, May 26, 2017

Birthday Party Extravaganzaaaaa

We celebrated Miss Luna's first birthday this past week and it was so much fun. I just want to extend many thanks again to all who helped make this such a special day for our baby girl, even if she was horribly offended by her cake. hahahaha. A special shout out to Cameo, my brother's mother in law for making the most beautiful and delish floral cupcakes ever!! And to my wonderfully talented sister Kelly for creating Luna's perfect birthday onesie. And even more appreciation to those of you who had to travel to celebrate with us. We are so incredibly grateful to have so many people who love and adore our sweet girl.

Photo dump alert! Enjoy some of my fave photos from our celebration!

Stay tuned for Luna's 12-month update coming as soon as I get a chance to write another blog post without two crying children demanding my attention. These kids, man. :P